How many times you hear God’s voice telling you to do something, and you don’t quite say no.
But mostly you don't want to say yes.
Like when God asked Jonah “Arise, and go to Nineveh the great city, and preach in it” (Jonah 1:2), instead of heading towards it, I run away.
I am full of excuses, like in the parable of the two sons (Matthew 21:28-32). I just don’t want to do it. The kids are sick. The work day far too long. I am tired. Someone else needs me. I just don’t want to.
And yet, when I say yes. Even when I do it internally kicking and screaming. The path opens itself.
The kids are healthy again. There is no more traffic in the freeway. The five minutes of rest were enough to get going. Even the family gets involved.
Why is it so difficult to say yes? Why can’t I just accept God’s will, His goodness?
Help me Lord to follow without hesitation. Help me accept your love. Help me love you.
Take me by the hand like a child. I want to follow.